How about this one, bet you thought you would see me on here for another year or so, yea, well I didnt think I would be on here again for while. What can I say the college life is crazzzy, but Im still lovin it!

First off I must say I love and miss all my ladies and latrobeans that left me this year for school! Hope you all are having a great time, party hard and then some!

What interesting enough to write in this thing? Not much really, I mean we have our fun up here, but its nothing hugh that everyone is going to want to read, though I must admit that I dont even read anyone elses anymore, because I find them boring. Not that their lives are boring, but reading about them is. I dont know how to explain it, I guess its just something I grew out of, caring about other peoples thoughts, when I have my own, and I can write and read them. Its hard to explain without sounding like I just dont care about everyone anymore, cause I do still care about you all, I guess I would rather you just call me and tell me what up, then read about it.

Anyways....life could be better, buts its not bad enough to complain. Ryans birthday was last week, and i worte him, along with sending him a card, and I have yet to hear from him, it worries me. I know he is strong-headed, and that he can take care of himself, but I miss him, and I worry, out of nowhere, if hes okay, and how hes doing. He comes back to the states in November, but Im not sure if he will be coming home then or around Christmas.

Do you ever sit and wonder about all the things in your life. Like how your life would be if you didnt come back, or didnt leave. What you would do if you never met them, if they never became your best friends, or if he was never your brother, all the little things in life, that are so big, and mean so much, what would you do without them. You can easly see yourself without all the negative things/people in your life, as though they never entered, how wonderful your life would be, but do you ever think that if you didnt have that pain, that you would never get that joy in your life. I know people who have gone their lives without that pain that rips you apart now matter how much you try to forget it or push it away, yet they dont know the joy of having people that will always be there for them, that have always been there for them, that have taught them how to be that person, the one you know is the one that everyone really wants to be around.

I feel like I just need to write this...I hate liers, I cant stand people who try to impress others, though I know we all do it, but those who make it so much more obvious, I have an attitude, and I dont care if people like it or not, I have a major issue with trusting ANYONE, even the people I love the most, sometimes I question if I can truely trust them, sometimes I feel like I can share my life with a stranger, but most the people I know have no idea what my life is really like, the things that have happened, and they probably never will, I think everyone should have secrets, that no one ever knows, I hate people who are loud, and try to stick out bcause they think they have something everyone wants to see, they dont! Sometimes the only thing I want is love, so I hate people who have it when I dont, i hate people who brag about how hard their life is, when there are people is this world that cant even remember what its like to be happy, I mean really happy. Most of all i hate the fact that I cant let anyone in, cause thats just what Ive learned, that the more people you let in, the more they just seem to convinence me that I should just shut people out.

I love all of my friends, my ladies! And a selected few others....

Just something I needed to vent, strated with school, ended with my confession, crazzzy!

Doing a ton of stuff at once, but I thought I would take a moment to update this bea!

Friday

I worked at 7 and we were suppose to close at 10 but people were coming home from the football game and decidied to stop, even though it says we close at 10 and it was 1030, but oh well. Then I came back here, and ate some food, then changed and went to look for cathy, who I couldnt find, so I came back up towards my room, ran into my roommate, and ended up hanging with all these people that were in the hallway, they just started to multiply the more we sat there. Then came back to bed around 3.

Saturday

Worked with Tim from 10 to 5. Then came back to my room and chilled here for a while, until nicole and chelby came up to see me, and check out the crib. Then I went and picked Krystal up, and we started calling people because we were going to see my cousin, who goes to W and J, and we didnt know how to get there, finally someone could help us, and then we talked to my cousin, and we had spent a good 15 mins going in the wrong direction. So we finally got there, and got CRUNK! Thats all Im gonna say! But the next morning I went out to my car and I had a TICKET! For not having a parking pass, a $45 ticket! So when I got home I called Adam and told him and he said he would take care of it, better, cause I aint paying that bitch!

Sunday

So when I got home I showered and fell asleep for a while then woke up and went to the mall with krystal, looking for a suite, then to kmart, where we saw dan, becky, and shane, and was invited to another party, but passed on cause I was still hurting from the one before. Went back to my room, changed it around, moved my bed down, cause I hate climbing that bitch at night! Then took my mom dinner at work, talk to her for a bit, then came back here, krystal called, so I went and picked her up, and we hung out here for a few hours, till I took her home.

Monday

Had to work 10 to 5 again, but its cool, cause I need the hours. Then went home to visit the family, hung out there for a few hours, and came back here and did some homework. Then watched laguana beach! I was not happy with this episode, I hate Jason and Alex together and Stephen and Kristen together! But the next episode looks so good! I think Jessica and Jason hook up again! Yea! Anyways, I get way too into this show, but I cant help it!

Tuesday

Class @ 10, which was boring, and confusing cause these teachers cant teach worth crap! Then ate with Lynnz @ the Shack, walked around alittle, went to Vins room, but he wasnt there, so went to Pod 1B, hung out with those guys for a while then came back here to check my mail, before my 4 o'clock class.

Thats about it bitches! Love ya!

Kay and Bridge did it so I thought, why not!

In the last 24 Hours have you...

1. Had sex: No
2. Bought something: yup. and applied for a job there.
3. Gotten sick: i think im getting there, cause my throat hurts really bad!
4. Sang: yea
5. Been kissed: no :(
6. ate something: im eating something right now.                                         7. Felt stupid: haha yea!
8. Talked to an ex: no
9. Missed someone: I miss my ladies! And I miss my favorite big brother ryan!
10. Hugged someone: lots of people, you can get a hug up here easily, but kisses are another thing
Last person who....

1. Slept in your bed: Me
2. Saw you cry: i cant even remember the last time i cryed, i held it back when ange left
3. Made you cry: prolly ryan, when he had to go back                                  4. You went to the movies with: lindsey to see dukes of hazzard
5. You went to the mall with: Liz, to drop off my app.
6. One thing you could take back: nothing...no regrets!
Have You Ever...

1. Said "I Love You" and meant it: i dont say it if i dont mean it
2. Got in a fight with your pet: no
3. Been to California: no
4. Been to Mexico: no
5. Been to China: no
6. Been to Canada: yeah! Canadians are awesome!
7. Been to Europe: nope
8. Wished you were the opposite sex: who hasn't!? Get to see all those boys in the locker room, yummy!

Random Questions:

1. Do you have a crush on someone: um. yeah
2. What book are you reading now: haha  all the ones from my classes
3. Worst feeling in the world: saying goodbye to your brother and best friend, and everyday not knowing if hes okay                                                        4. Future KIDS names: idk, we talk about it all the time at work, but i always change my mind...hehe..i guess well know in maybe 5 years
5. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no
6. What's under your bed: my desk, frig, books..a lot really!
7. Favorite sport to watch: FOOTBALL BABY!!! STEEELERS! WOOT, WOOT! 
8. Location: Latrobe, PA
9. Piercing/Tattoos: my ears, and belly 
10. Do you drink: hell yea!
11. What are you most scared of right now: never hearing form my brother again..love ya ry!
12. Where do you want to get married: i can never make up my mind
13. Who do you really hate: liars!
14. Do you have a job: yea.. DQ baby!
15. Do you like being around people: sometimes
16. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: haha.. yea..          17. Have you ever cried: um duh. who hasn't!?
18. Are you lonely right now: yea, most of my favorite people are all gone, and no one has come close to replacing them!
19. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: Dont Cha Baby!
Have you Ever:

I know your dying to know what I've been up to at college. Well I will try my best to describe everything and not forget it all.

Friday ~ move in day!

Loaded up the hitch on the back of the "beast", then drove the whole five minutes up here, to wait in line for a half hour just to drive up to the rooms. Drove up and parked my car, while some of the upper classmen unloaded all of my stuff and took it up to my room! I didnt have to lift a thing!

Then I started to unpack...which is a bitch itself! You spend a week packing everything up and then you have to unpack it all, and you have so much stuff and you have no idea were to put it! It ended up taking me two days to get it all upacked and somewhat oragnized! But its done.

Then went to mass, and then there was a picnic for you and your family, so there was 500 freshman and their families eating outside! It was nice but it started to rain, but didnt really get that wet.

Then they had a movie night, and we were suppose to go outside on the lawn and watch the movie but since it rainned they moved it inside, which was horrible, cause it was the smallest room for 500 people, and it was hot, no air, and there were no seats, we had to sit on the ground! So after about half an hour of that I went outside with Lindsey, Cathy, Nin, Ravi, lloyd, Julius, Mike, there were a bunch of us, all from sped week, and just hung out.

Then we went to the guys pods, and they were suppose to meet us back at my room, but only ravi came up so then we went to look for them, but couldn't find them, so we went back upstairs and slept.

Saturday ~ Wet and Wild!

I didnt wake up, with lindsey, until 1130, so I missed most of the meetings. Then I walked lindsey to her car, and she went home, then I went back upstairs and showered and got ready and finished upacking and organizing! Then I went to the wet-n-wild with my roomie, brigi, and two girls from the 4 floor, margi and steph, and it was crazy! There were three firetrucks, and about 10 girls and 40 guys. It was so much fun, we beat the guys three times in a row in the battle of the buck, and then we lost with the bucket over your head thing, and quit the wheelbarrow one because they kept running out of water. So we played slip and slid in the grass, all up the butt! Then we got in this red-square-bath-type-thing, with all the guys left, and it was fun.

Then went back to the pod and got a shower, then went to dinner. foods not bad. Then had a to get ready for the grafitte dance, which was cool, but it started to rain, so everyone wa getting wet. Ange stopped by and said goodbye, since she left for boston, then they stopped the dance early cause it was rainning so hard and they didnt want anyone to get shocked.

So then we went back to Benny and hung out for a little bit, then we went to whimmer with jon, me and lindsey did. Then we left there and came back to benny were we met up with cathy, and ravi, and we ended up going back to whimmer, hung out at troys, lindsey left, but I stayed for a while longer, until we got kicked out by the prefect, because he said it was starting to get late and we were making too much noise, which is bullshit becasue quit hours arent till 2 am on the weekends, and it was only 1, but we didnt want to get troy in trouble so, me, cathy, and ravi, went back to benny. I took a shower and went to bed!

Sunday ~ Brunch

This morning around 11 I met my "Big" in the lobby and we went to brunch, which was crazy! It was only freshman there and it was so packed! We waited in line for a good half hour before we got our food!

Then we had to take these stupid surveys, and had to get a group picture.

Then me and lindsey went and walked through all the pods in benny, and walked up to whimmer and pretty much all of campus. Then ended up going back to benny to see julius and ravi was there too, so we hung out with them until dinner time, went to dinner, then came back to benny, and went up to the game room adn hung out with mike, and these two other guys, who were cool.

Then Lindsey went home, and now Im here on the computer, check up on everything.

So thats college life...and now Im going to play cards with jena and some other peeps in Carey!

Long time no see!

I havent been on cause my computer is gay, and it wouldnt let me on to this website...like I said, gay! But now Im back! Yea!

So lately I have been doing a lot of packing! I am moving into St. Vincents dorm room, at St. Benedicts Hall, room D509....you can come visit me anytime ya like! Its been crazy tho, I never knew how much stuff I had, till I had to pack it all! See I have to pack everything Im taking, then everything I want to keep, and then everything I dont want. Cause they might move the rooms around when Im gone, so all my stuff has to be packed! Yea, so much fun...not! But its almost all done...just a few things that i kinda use everyday, so I could pack them. Just two more days! Well kinda one, cause this one is almost over, and then theres tomorrow, and then Friday I move in at 930 in the AM!

Goosh these people dont know what sleep is!How can I party the night before, and wake up at 830 the next morning to get ready..? Thats just mean!

Packing everything up, you go through a lot of stuff! Made me think of how much Im going to miss my ladies! All the great times we had together!  How far apart we are going to be!  How much longer till spring break?

Enough of the sadness, Im moving out! And college is starting! How sweet is this...I asked off for the weekend, since Im moving in and orientation and all, and he gave me off like a week, so I wouldnt be worried about too much! Great place that DQ! Love it!

Im talking to nicole right now, so I keep forgeting what Im gonna write, or what I should write...so Ill write later..I prolly wont be able to sleep tomorrow so...tomorrow!